Life.
Life, What a confusing subject for alot of people. Why do some things happen in life? Why some bad and others good? Those are questions I believe may never be answered. I am thirteen years old and I believe I have seen and dealt with alot of stuff for my age. But, I guess if those things in life that have happend to me didn’t happen to me I wouldn’t be such a fighter or a beleiver. I also guess that in everyones life there is a bad point or two mine has just been lasting a little longer than everyone elses. Try since I was born. Dealing with an alcoholic mother and a stepdad who could care less about me and yells and screams at me for the littlest things possible has changed my thinking in the past 6 years or so. I am thankful for the stable enviorment I have at my fathers house or elses at this moment in time I might as well be a loner, doing drugs and drinking alcohol or cutting my wrists for attention. My dad’s girlfriend has also helped me, she has been a mother to me for about the last year the one that I never really had but at the same time did have. I guess my mom isn’t so bad she just doersn’t think with the situations shes in sometimes. She thinks shes happy with a husband who has physically and still does mentally abuse her but I guess she doesn’t know what real happieness is. She also loves me and I know that but I wish she would have made better decisions when I was little. We might not be in the financial situation or the physical state were in right now. This is her second husband and none of those two husbands have been my real dad. Her first husband cheated on her and she left him right away but then her second husband did it (my stepdad now) and she really didn’t think anything of it. The thing that made me really mad when he did this tyhough is because she wouldn’t even tell me he did it. I think she was dissapointed, dissapointed in herself and she didn’t want me to be dissapointed in her after the other horrible desicion she had made. I don’t think this relationship will last much longer, but I guess who knows? But for now always
- Jessica.