Juicy!

Sometimes, I feel the weight that I carry on my shoulders gets heavier and heavier every day.  Being the oldest child of 4 children, you tend to have this odd sense of parental responsibility - the need to make sure your family is OK.  So you carry this burden on your shoulders and tell no one about it. 

Then you come home to your family and make sure that they are together as well.  I was once told that it is the woman in the family that really carries the family.  I am beginning to think it’s true.  Couple that with being the eldest child.  So now you’ve got to hold your own family together as well as the family that you grew up with - your parents and siblings. 

Sometimes, I just want to hide from it all.  Run away.  But where to?  But the guilt!  I love my family. I love my parents.  l love my siblings!  So I can’t run and I can’t hide.  It’s up to me to keep the balance.

No, I’m not depressed.  OK.  Maybe just a little.  But don’t worry.  It’s just a phase.

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